Last drop of word.....

Wednesday 31 December 2008,
阴天，今天我没有却哪里。。。但是今天是2008年last day lol i think i should continue in english back hahaaa. make myself suffer......Times flies laalalala last day of 2008 jor left 4 hours and 28 minute to the brand enw year all though every year have new year but every new years has different meaning looking back at the year of 2008 what have i don't...what i should do and i have not do and therefore we should leave all in 2008 and put our chest up to face the new year no matter how bad is the economic...just like out life there are ups and downs so no matter we are on top or we are at the bottom we never forget ourself of what we are and never never fang qi but you need to gambatte la....희망을 2009년에 최선을 다
2008년 작별 환영합니다 2009 last but not least Take Care have good health in 2009

Love,
Joey

Yesterday was a tired day.....

Aiya yesterday i was outside the house for the whole day so so tired...having karaoke at 12 noon till 3 den have some drinks later on have some walk look around and my legs are damn tired so i decided to sit at mcd and waited for them about 1 1/2 hours and slowly one by one came...and we started about 8...and we have nando's chicken again my my.....until i can't even walk..9 of us were there talking about those good days we have together...meeet upp with friends i dun meet in 2 till 3 years.... some still the same some have changed alot well...after the dinner we went for a drink in bangsar well around 10 something...and i had sex on the beach and long island.....and one of my friend was drunk and she talk crap and she is rolling here and there it was so funny to see her drunk like that way i remembered when i was drunk i wasn't like dat weird lol hahaha....but i went back around 12.45 reach home about 1am and took a quick bath and lied on the bed...maybe it was too tired i did not really go to sleep straight..but i enjoyed the drink sex on the beach is a little alcoholic a little sweet juicy have some orange juicy its nice but the long island there is so so lol not enough lemon not sour enough and should be little bit more sweet...but still ok lo...2 more days to new year laaaaa~~~~to be continue~

~THE END~

Eh Eh time is flying lerrrr....so fast we are reaching the end of the year 2008 already is just like 2 time blinking our eye hor.....Well coming 2009 will be a bad year due to bad economic....to get a job is no more easy but i will keep it up do my best but of course 1st half of the year finish my degree and then look for a good job..So im taking this opportunity to wish you guys have a wonderful year a head...have a blessed new year and may god bless you all..

Love,
Joey

What a horroble day.....

Have u guys ever heard of some human that will drop off from a bike that is not moving..the gym bike....Damn today i created a hisory of my life of dropping off from the gym bike damn so embressing but i created many bruises on my body and not too bad im able to finish the 1 hour cycling class....but it still hurts now ar.......this story tells you beware in any moment although it sames not dangerous....but it is dangerous....well this doesn't give me any night mare i will continue going for cycling classes....Gambateh Joey san.....

Saturday and sunday the 7th and 8th december...IS a good date in the lunar calender yeah i went to a wedding dinner at my dads hometown and it was fun although is a small village...the atmosphere is not as good as those in kl but overall is not that bad...It was my cousin sister's wedding married to a cheras guy well they both look good....well marriage is a signature of life to be able to get together with a guy for the rest of the life is not easy to go on this road the both parties need to scarify for each and other well i can say one word LOVE is not EVERYTHING but LOVE is SOMETHING that we need to PLEASURE it and ENJOY IT...After the wedding i slept over night at my cousin brother's new house. He is the next person who is gonna have his wedding next month on the january. i did not slept real well but just a nap because is not my bed haha.. After that the next morning i went to my uncle house it was my grandma birthday many cousins uncle and aunts came back to celebrate birthday with my grandma she is so happy it was her 88th birthday together celebrating her becoming the great great great grandma la is the 5th generation already so she is so happy when she see's her kids,daughter,in law's,grandson,and great grandson ar hahaha i also dunnoe who to count and how to name them but that is it well i have some picture here to let u guys see it...

mYFm~aSTro CNY Song lAuNCh.....

This morning i went for a survey at 8am....It last about till 1.30 and so after that i plan to buy my mom the chinese new year DVd since she wants to watch it...Therefore i went to cheras Leisure mall for the launching of the MYastro niu chuan something haha forgot the name lerrrr...but because of too many ppl there i oni got to buy the dvd at the very last minute but wortch guaaaaa....can see the singer over there...

wIShing heRe to EvERy ppl have apleast new year and A gOOd YEar ahEAD.....hApPY CNY
~2009~

24th till 28th.......

At last i found a part time job doing something better den nothing looo....but thats only for 1 week ar...next week sit at home rest hohoho show u guys what i've been doing for the week









HAHA THIS IS WHAT I"M DOING.......

REdboX opening at the GardEns...

Hmmmmm nothing much lor....mah got alot of ppl rush rush haizzz and i feel that im very short jorrrrrrr i cant see a thing so at last i go to the back where the artist go up and go down lastly i took the most picture is the mc picture hahaha in blue..

ENJOY THE PICTURE LA BUT NOT TOO CLEAR OHH ANYWAY ENJOY~~

7.30 pm.....

Wow this is the 1st time that i ever had such a scary night mare....it was about 7pm i had this dream....at first i was at a beach side....the beach is so beautiful many ppl's are there to sell things and i love to see what ppl sell and along the beach many ppl were there with their family having fun....there are also some water activities going on....i did enjoy the scenery there so our car was park at the other end...i told my mom i'm going have a look around until the other end...as i was walking wow i saw many ppl selling food and things like cloths shoe and many other things....so i just wonder what should i buy as i walk and walk i found coin on the sandy beach so i bend down and pick them up as im picking i found a few other coins around and i pick them all up....walk and walk then i reach to almost the end of the place where there are ppl selling things so i taught of buy 2 "ang ku" so i choose and then talk a little to the aunties and then i wanted to pay the money for the 2 "angku" so i take out the money that i pick up on the ground den suddenly i heard "qian ren siao, qian ren siao" then i look up and i see the a large wave heading toward us as im thinking it should be "hai siao" our so called tsunami the moment i think it was tsunami the wave and the sea water already reach our place and the wave is ah high as 5 feet 6 there is no time for me to think to run....the second wave come just after a few moment i manage to get hold a kid with me and we run to the nearest house but the gate was lock.....this time the wave come even further than just now and the same moment i pull the kids with me i climb the gate....after the water came to us i feel that i cant breath.....I feel that i cant breath anymore.....and i was waken up by that night mare and i quickly take a deep breath to make sure i still can breath innnn.....and at that moment my heart pump very fastt...and i was relive and i get up from my bed.....this is such a night mare that i will never forget it.....

hohoho......

New songs are posted ady la...enjoy guys.....and be pleased leave ur comments let me know that you have listen it or read anything here..thanks arigato....

Is holiday laaaaa...

I'm finding for a part time job hmmm but cant find one yet sad sad...getting bored at home laaaaa......well exam was done.....up load some picture here for u guys...hope u guys like it comment it pretty anot ar!!!!!

2 more left.....

2 more paper and i will be a free bird again...today i did not really sleep hmmm wake up a 2am to finish studying now is too hot to lie down ahhhh i'll sleep later maybe at 10 hmmmm after the other 2 im gonna fly fly fly i wanna go out from house heheheh....but u all dun come and kidnap me lehhhh...
i wanna go for holiday...

Flu flu flu

Aiya this few days keep having fluuuu helppppppp its so damn hot over here and yet having flu ahhhhh.....it keeps dripping out lalalala.....some one suck it..hahaha nasty rite...exam is terrible hate it so much yet have to do so many.....okok got to attend to my flu liaooooo...

Aiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Finals is just around the corner arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...i need to do my revision arrrrrrrr but still not yet start hahaha lazy bone hahaahah.....after finals will be my last semester doing partime job and after that i will all be doing work for the rest of mylife arrrrrrrrr thats saddddddddddd but no choice la for a better living i ought to do so like everyone out there who is looking at my blog thanks for visiting la muackssss all ciao~~~~~

I think of Him again....

It has been sometimes that i have not think of that incident but on friday night me and my fellows friend we went for a drink and thereforee we spite all out..and so it reminds me of him well this time i feel differently i taught i will forget indeed but i still remember some..hmmm the worst part is i dream of him...aiya but only that day i also dunnoe why haha my brain out of control la...but anyway keep it up joey..

AFter Tomorrow...

After tomorrow i can take in a deep breath laaaa....I have all my assignment done and can concentrate on my revision for the next few week concentrate on my exam...phew this few week really dunnoe wat the hack am i doing play and rush today also need to rush but feel like buying a new phone hehe...This final exam i got to work tripple hard because i need to score it if not...I dont noe wat will happen to me.so you guys pls pray hard for me.

While i'm taking my dinner...

TOday while im having my dinner i realize that im not all alone friend whom come to me not a burden to me at all..while i clear my mind and heart to listen to hem i indirectly solve my own problem. one who don't have a clear mind an heart could not see things clearly...So long after i talk to my fren(she)i noe she have problem but she say she dont like to share her problem with anyone but keep it in her heart.I feel bad when she say that it seems that she has no one to share her problem but i noe she dont trust me enough but is ok...She said that I will not understand her problem well i dun think im one of the worm in her body how would i noe anything without you yourself telling me..How sure are you that i wouldn't understand if you tell me...She is testing me when she meantion all the guys that have intention on her and that i noe but i can tell the whole world that im innocent in everything and is all yours to choose who to believe..however i cant be bother so much you choose it u walk it the best you can and no matter what happen over come it..There is nothing that cannot be solve in this world and im sure you can do it..I just hope that you could be happy after this to noe wat you should do. one more thing be responsible on the decisions that you have made good or bad it will effect people that is involve in this matter...Today im clear that i have to look to the front and attempt the future challenges. May god bless me and you guys out there.

it's Monday again....

Today back to studies...we did some presentation hmmm...today i continue the drama love to cry when i watch those drama...cry when is touching...cant write too much..got friend sad and have problem have to help them haizzzz never ending..

No more diary....

Why why why im so good to people..why wanna be ppls diary for so long....now they come to you when they have problems..i really wan to help but wat can i do wor... you all dun come to me anymore la i really dun wanna be anybody's diary any more..im already so stress but nobody come and comfort me but come and tell me about their problem when they really have problem but they dun come o share happinest wat kind of fren is this.i'm so sorry i really dont noe wat to do..I'm not superwomen nor superman ar....ppl come to me when they have problem but i go to no one when i have problem im just a failureeeeeeeee............haizzzzzzzzzzzzz

lonely night 2.12am

today went out to mid valley with my sisters...Park my car at south court...When i pass by the south court main entrance...i'm stunt i remember he walk in through that place and i first meet him there...whole day thinkin nonsense...i'm now all alone..

Those were the Days...

Joey is getting older day by day...my thinking getting deep and deep far far away until i myself dont understand myself. When i was in high school we just go to school talk and laugh there goes all the time having fun talking nonsense but those were the days...I noe somebody out there care for me..Im glad thank you buddy out there..i might not noe who but i noe there is someone. Im sorry because i feel someone but i dunnoe who i cant see you i can hear you bu feeling...I will get stronger day after day.. I'm finishing this semester soon is gonna be holiday again.. I wonder what history will i create this holiday...I've some sweet one's the last holiday..hehe
This time maybe just working...Nobody inform me that he or she is coming for holidays but if im free i sure be there at least a drink..Le you guys see me from a closer look haha...ok got to continue assignments.

It's 11.56 pm

Going to be another new day after 3 more minute..Thanks for those who still visit my blog once awhile.Thanks for the msg you leave me..Sometime when ppl dun speak out we cant feel it but she they speak out i got hurt no matter where am i on earth it happens.My moods get down nobody to talk to..I'm gonna grad soon im going to step in to the cruel reality world this is too scary but i need to go this is life.More problems is gonna hunt for me.What should i do singing isn't curing me now.I dunnoe wat should i do.Assignment is as high as mountain..If i dun finish it this week im going to die everything have to be done...Give me your support.Let me noe ur supporting me.If you dont tell i really dunnoe gar come to me...SOmetimes i feel like hugging but who should i hug...ok la till here for today.

HAve not been writing for sometimes..

So sorry to all my readers. I have not been writing form sometimes maybe i dun have the mood or feel to write but to day i came and scratch a little.Today i found out that many ppl actually have deleted my msn or blocked me is really serious case in here cause some are my friends that for once we chat to each other almost about everything but if u guys would like to delete or block me b4 that do inform me so that i can do the same. Especially mr SC not sure if this is his name bu if you are reading this and you feel that im no more qualify to be your friend pls do inform me so that i can just totally wipe it all off.SEriously telling you mr sc i really do not have anything that belongs to you with me none...not even a tiny hair...You see god is always fair the more you don like it it will appear infront of you..IF one day who ever i really meet on the road no worries you can just walk away i only respect those who respect me as well as a friend is not there is no more meaning.you dont see doesn't mean you will forget.Happens is already happen it will forever follow you...But im always truth to friends no matter who they are you don appreciate it den is ok my luck to have such friends..ok i've said more than enough today and if you really read this, just thanks for u dropping by to read.

Without him....

without him 21 day Cloudy,Today cant concentrate on singing although i'm singing the song of myself...but when im try to put my feelings in the song and i start to think abou him again although is not a long time that we have known each other but it has been some par of it that we actually walk the path together...I knew it well that i will loose him after the terrible quarell i had with him...but anyway it is over...and today i missed him so much and i went back to see him....but i dont feel good as well when is saw him... i'm glad that he is fine and seems happy well to love someone is to make sure he is happy...i realise that he had been close to this lady lately and i went and confirm it myself and yes my prediction is correct...I couldn't go back and ask him anything more.Wat i could do now is just looking at him from far make sure he is fine....i guess im just over worried about him maybe he just live better now....I'm just so silly...but i've done many silly things..How long will he stay in my heart another 1 day, 2 day or 10 days maybe 1 month i dunnoe i really dont noe...HE treat me as sister all this while and i noe it....and i've lost a brother...and he have found someone he loves....i just feel so so bad when i see them together...tears fall inside my heart again....many things that i have to concentrate for now so many asignments and exxam coming....Forget him la....Put it all in another dairy...i told myself not to step into the same hole again and yet i fell in again....The Dream of looking at sunset together while eating "Ngau Hor" is really a dream that never come true....I have another dream i want to see "LAu Sing Yu" hehe........i guess he must be a very romantic person so that i will have my dreams come true...No more thinking.....Move forwarddddddddd Dun look backkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!! Do the bes for yourself and not for others...

Why??

Why is this happening again...why cant u believe me....am i rubbish to you..the momenent i sit back in front of the computers my eyes get wet again....Did i do anything wrong again why would i get such treatment everytime why why why!!!!!!!!!!! i noe i mean nothing to you...but pls open ur eyes wider and ur ears wide listen to other ppl la....i told myself and i have learn this word we eat the sweet one's the sour one's the spicy one's and also the bitter one's....I just dun understand u didn't want to believe.....Still believe is a name for myself and why because not one person out there is believable and i only believe myself give a chance to myself well virtual world is not part of my life i dun think i will take this for long...Until this extend it is so bad until i dun want to hear anymore not only you but all that involve....I hope it stops here and i dun want to spit out the word from this moment we are not friends anymore....It seems childish talking this but today im really sad,up sad,crying until my tears dry up.....Never for once my tears dry up....Dunnoe whom should i tell i have nobody to listen to me...my trusted friend no more trust me....Well take it as if i never meet him b4...i dont want to explain much not because i did it and i dun dare to say is just i feel that if i din do it why must i explain so much let the regrets stay with u guys forever...to me im still younng i can find my life....I believe so much in you and at last i get this well..i just sallow all the sadness to myself and dun let anyone know it....Because of this problem i nearly went to the heaven cause i nearly meet with an accident if i really die that momment i guess nobody will ask me question any more...regardless of it i should live happier than wat i have now and would not want ppl to question me anymore....Hoping that tomorrow would be a brighter day..

So fast is already thursday now....

Aiya i need to know australia more ppl who leave there and know their country well pls come to me....I need to do some presentation on it..dont noe wat else to write heheh..

Wednesday...

I've started to watch the drama heart of greed although this drama was done one year ago but i only watch it this few day...Am i outdated no actually i've ask him to send me a copy but he denied so i must work on my own hands to get wat ever i want...there are many ups and down...Today i taught of you again....Taught of the happy thing that we have done it together...It have been sometimes that i've not seen you ...Dont worry that i will stick to you..man hates a lady sticking to him i noe...I remember for once i've ask you this question...How long will you keep this special memories with you as an unfrogettable memories and you said it will be there for long and i'll remember it clearly....And from the last talks u told me that u almost forget it already well it is ur choice of it.Might be a good things of forgeting things fast..I admit it myself that is still in my memories some part of it.Anyway we got to continue of different road....Get the rigt path and walk though out our whole life.....Hope to see both of us improve in everything we doing and going to be done....Take care stay healthy and less drinking...

Tuesday......

Today is the 1st day of class. As usuall things are so messy so many things to be done so many things to apply so many forms to fill in haizzzz all that i can say is ho fannnn ar....but the feeling is weird again when im back here i see my old friends old classmate it seem like a little far apart already....No wonder i always listen to ppl saying that long distance relationship is hard to maintain and its real it is reallll....the 1st day of class lecturer already giving out assigments and group work.....Very stress arrrr.....Anybody can helppppp..But.....Hey wat song was that....Anita's and Jacky's song Ai hen nan....Si fau chan dik ya hen nan ma???
loving someone is real hard being love is 100X harder....If everything come just like the water flow to me....Thats too good but i belive in this world nothing is easy and if u get it easy it means that we are not proud of it too....Time really flies and i still did not do much in improving myself and my lifestyle..So sad..

Thinking away.....

Wo bu shi yue liang, ye bu shi xing xing, dan wo ke yi zuo yi dian deng, yong yuan wei ni fa guang!!!I'm not a moon and im not a star too but i can make be a lamp that lights you forever....When i look at this sentence im thinking how many ppl can actually do this for their the other half...if they are willing to do how long are they willing to do....1 year ,2 years,5 years,10 years, 20 years, or forever.....It is definately not and easy thing to be done.To actually that the 1st step pick up the responsible itself is not easy....But if you guys anyone out there who could do this well and forever congratulation....Anyway good luck to all and myself so that i can get someone who lights me forever.....

Saturday morning......

Listening to hokkien music right now.........nice feel to relax my body and my bones it is so tens up this few days.....i've did everything to relax myself.....i need to leave the city for sometimes....I want to go to the heaven of food a place where i can eat eat and eat without considering anything........tomorrow medical report will be out hope that everything is normal....so afraid to go to the hospital already....

Why would you making me sad again........

Enough of you torture la................Wat am i to you....A bag for you to put in all ur blames have u ever think about me am i nothing to you just some dust.......I so fed up wit it why cant u give me a chance to live happily give me a chance to breath laaaaaaa.........Just tell me if you want me to leave............Dont always give me unnessesary stress im not always a tough girl that can accept any kinds of torture.........Pls i beg you if u see this blog.........Leave me.........No matter how i've tell you about it u just dun belive it wat can i do......What you want me to do.......I can just cry out silently........I still have many paths to go........i noe im nothing to you but pls dont hurt me again....i will collaps anytime.....

Failure..............

Today failure is tomorrow sucess.....Yesterday was a history...Tomorrow is a mistery and Today was a gift by god that i can see wats happening around....Too many failure will make someone weak and it forces them to give up....Give up on hope and those serious one's give up on themself and their life's...Do not always look back at the past because that will only be a reminder to us tat we do not repeat those wrong things but sometimes under some condition it will make u guys think about it again but be proud of youself for the history that you have created no matter is good or bad you have done it urself....If u think you Sin's with youself Get some prayers done to wash out the sins and this will make ur live better.....My Job in KUALA LUMPUR AT LAST ENDED LALALALAL......Sick of rushing to work and rushing back home....Now that i can breath hardly and deep get more fresh air.........Tonight going to a place where i've not been there for long just feeling that i want myself to get drunk i want ALCOHOL YES YES !!!!!!!!!!!!!HEHEHE...See if there are any good guys that i can meet tonight.........

Monday Blue...

Beutiful monday morening serve beautiful Joay la of course kakakakak.....Wow today work si just so boring nothing for me to do in the office wor kakakak but shhhh dun let anyone noe cause Joey get pay without working shhhhh..Anyway im trying to find something to do try to make myself busy....but it seems like nothing much can be done.If today nothing to do tomorrow will be doing too much haiz....but anyway who cares la just do our best and do wat we should do....Holiday going to end soon sad sad ar......Coming sem have to prepare my tesis hehe....ok la going to have lunch now...

After Dinner la......

AIyaya very full like pig cannot walk jor kakakakakak....If u guys see me b4 you all will know that im really a pig and sleeping beauty lor lalalala.....Another 3 more days for work After that Im back to uni but b4 that Surely go hang kai kai la eat eat and drink drink....I think im going to Pavillion this Wednesday after work hehe i want to buy tha JCO Doughnut it was so nice if tried it once so tasty and yummy soft and smooth kakakaka Just like......(hemmmmm)...

Is Friday Again....

is 1.29 pm now another 3hour and 15 minute is going to finish work la and its weekend again....rest time la...Everybody love friday especially at night because is friday night.. a night for drinking, a night for dancing and last but not least anight for flirting kakakak agree with me....But firday night to me is just a simple day again.I might end up sitting in front the computer at home again see who can i chat with or else maybe some singing....On the 6th of July im going to have a karaoke session again i hope the plans goes on well cause i miss all of my beautiful singer ler....You guys dun ffk me again.....No more playing after dis no more vacation for some times got to sit down and study la and concentrate well....I need to score well in this semester so that my result will look better.....No to prove to everyone that im smart but just to bet better job in future that my aim and my hope...study so hard for the past how many year ar...let me think????around 18 year if im not mistaken only to wait for today ar THE WORKING DAY.....Coming out to the society is not easy....get urself suite well in the society also not easy just one word to everybody life is complicated kakakaka..ok got to back to work la......write more tonight..Ciao guys...

What should i write today...

21th June la Everyday passes by so fast...and im growing older and older la....Feeling cute lately hehe tend to be kawai so lame hor kakakaka....is 10.41 in the morning 2 day rest and monday back to work ohhhh thats stressful but anyway i need money so i will have t work hard to get it...Hehe be happy all Joey man sui~~~~

Another tired day...

Today as usual wake up early in the morning take the bus and monorail to work.....it will be hetic if the shedule keep repeating for the rest of my life...Uni is goin to reopen soon on the 7th of July and many many things to do later...Studies exxam and many more kau chai also dun have time arrrrrrr

Days that are hard to forget.....

After that day i knew that i will never see him anymore...dunnoe that i should have sad feelings or no feelings....When ever see him online he will tell me he want to sleep or want to go...See him like din see him....Now worst dunnoe when will see tim...all messages i've deleted nothing left just those beutiful memories in my mind....hope that the memories dun go keep it in the deepest of my heart....Keep reminding myself not to think about anything anymore but keep appearing not all the time just when i dun do anything i'll start thinking alot and far away....but now keep myself stand up straight and walk to the future and dun look back....my happiness is in front and in the future.....Joey gambateh!!!!!!!

The trip to Malacca on the 14th June...

Beautiful Saturday afternoon we girls, me and my net friends we went to Malacca beautiful place to visit......Well many things to see,eat and walk of course...Basically nothing much i bought back well my budget too tight kakaka but i still have fun in my economic trip...

Well learn something from the trip many....

Days after day.....

Yesteday night 16/6 was a moody day....Really not in good mood...hope for someone to give me some laughter but nothing was given to me but more questions from ppl...In the moody night when u cant get anybody to talk about i tend to think many things again....Thinking wat has happen in the past especially the month of may on the 10th if your there u noe wat happen....becose mood flings and i did cry..cry to release out the stress i had from those days.....After the sleep hehe im happy again...kakakaka moods flings human is like dat ge la no matter guy or girl!!!
Dont think too much........Do wat every we need to do for this momment!!!

Some beautiful picture in Penang

Ohhh my goddddd

Traffic jam in kl is just a norm...But working does fill my time instead of just sitting here and online chatting all day long...but getting myself being there right on time and the working place is just situated in the most jam's place in kl....working is fun especially u got to meet new ppl and learn new thing kakakaka...

Song does bring human feelings together...

I do remember that one of my friend told me not to sing too much of song because he said when ever someone tries to sing a song she will be putting her very own feelings in the songs by then she will feel the song and the song itself has its soul in it....I love singing but not every song that i sing has the soul in it esecially when there are things bothering you....To take someting up is truely easy but to put it down is real hard and time is needed...Is the same as a relationship between a guy and a lady is always easy to start and it is hard to maintain....And in every relationship it has the peak and downward slooping....If a couple can get through the peak and the slope i guess this couple will make it to the end...And it will be a happy life ever after...

Something is bothering me again...

This is the last time that im going to falll in love with someone...I feel so tired....so so tired.....in a relationship that never have future in it..You can say im sad....In this moment i just cant make my brain funtioning well..i tried so hard to pull myself so that i don't fall in to the love trap again....sadly now that i have to pull half of heart out that have sink into the love trap....Women is forever stupid...no matter they tell themself not to be blind....But the will loose the love battle is they start to play this game....Sadly im loose in it again....Surrender la never want myself getting hurt again........

After sometimes...

After sometimes i realise and understand what love is all about...love is not just being together looking at each other..is the click when u both are click you guys will be in love without realising it hehehe....i hope my feelings was not wrong kakaka....for the mean time just let this feeling stay here..in future how far it will develope nobody knows it but stay tune guys......

Starting a new life...

Haha after i've understand everything i should understand.Now im glad that everything is being explain with all the efford i've put in and it last about 2 month..Yeah around that well i understand my situation actually well we are so far apart nothing can be done much..."xing yau de wo chue bu neng kou gei ni wo chuen bu, wo neng gei de chue you bu shi ni xiang yau yung you de, wo men bu shi he yeh bu xiang ren shu, hai ji chi wo men bao zhi bu zi dou shi xiang yau ku" a part of a lyric thats very suitable for me and you...Anyhow i've been happy through this short time by rite u did gave me something mentally...Anyway im now awake from my beautiful dream....PEople outside who is reading my blog here...pls if u have someone u love or like pls step forward and grab them if not u will regret in future..

Night Mare.............

IT have been smetimes not writing here la...Have many problems to handle plus exams....So many exam haizzzzz tiring...Now im listening to R&B songs and writing this blog....I have a night mare yesterday night. No do i consider that as night mare...Hmmmm a person attack me me with a knife.i'm not sure is women or a guy..but im sure that the knife came and cut me on my hands is all bleeding...ouchhh that was painful....but i manage to catch the person....haha and police came.....while dat person attack me i remember i saw someone came and rescue me but i cant remeber his face for now but it ends up so romantic and no more a night mare lor wahahahaha...cheers friends........

No feeling now...

What have happen to him ar....I cant get be with him already a suffer but he does not respond i suffer much....Anyway today 21/2/08 i will be departing to Pulau Pangkor is a assigment base vacation...I hope i got to let go of my brain after i come back i really need to give full concentration to my studiesssss and put love aside can i do this...I cant trust myself too nobody is there to support me...I need to be more independent...Good memories is too keep....I feel like getting to the sea..I hope no matter wat happen i wanna noe the result...Haizzzz~~~~PAngKor I come laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Valentineeeeeeeee

Aiya valentines day is just around the corner.............huhhuhuhuh HMMM how will my valentines day 2008 look like...Good SoSo or Bad....Anyway i wanna wish all ppl outside there single or couple have a wonderful valentines day be prepares you guys might have surprise for each otherssss...

Haizz....

Sometimes i really dont know what they are thinking of.When u treat the a little better or a little more caring and they will start avoiding you....when u dun care for them they will say why wouldn't you care for me....Is all the human in this word act like that..But my perception will always be the same.I just be myself.And i dont want them to think that i mess up their life...I just try to show my care and my love not to control them or tie them up never think of that..Maybe i dun have much experince in this therefor i might mess it up again...Likewise the thing im doing now i might feel is alright but others dont...I hope "MR Someone" understands me and i need more time to understand you in detail too.Everybody is busy with their own life now especially those thing they have been doing such as their career so im here to support you not to give u more problems i hope that this will make u clear in mind..And Joey will still always be Joey..

CNY

IS cny soon la...Wish everyone have a wonderful time..And i have a wonderful time too..This year cny i hope i will have a the most memorable time with my love ones...
Valentines days are also just around te corner...Hope not to be lonely this valentines day..Wishes all wealthy and healty..especially Joe

Life isn't so difficult but is Complicated

A younger like me 21+1=22 shouldn't have always think so complicated but...
i just cant stop thinking day and night but maybe is takes time but i just really feel better now and more relax cause is not a big matter to me.In order to live better i ought to find my own happiness kakaka sound old but not really la every got to think about it no matter when one day...Do not ever let the past hold ur present....Let go you hand when u feel thats the best way..Do not make u time stop at the past.Because no matter how hard u want to be just like da past u could not turn back time...Everything is easy to be said den done but need to be remind again too.Just make Life simple.Think of the consequenses later and be happy now dats all...All though u noe ur dieing tomorrow do what u can do today b4 regretting it tomorrow....Nothing is too late if u appreciate it.

Give up la haizzzzzzzzz

Heart break la...I'm giving up those stuff i plan to do or feel like doing no mood to do all this after all..ITs so stupid to think that way but i dont have confidence to do it anymore well i have to let go my hand although i have not even hold it...maybe just dream to hold it but i dun feel like to have it now...

Hmmm is already 2008....

Well is already 3 days from 2008...Every moments of happiness and sadness in the last 2007 should be kept as the best memories....I am very happy in 2008 because i have actually celebrated a wonderful last few moments with a friend i noe for not too long...although we did nothing much together only some singing and chatting but i very appreciate that and i have a wonderful feeling being together...i guess it brings me a beautiful memories i ever had....I hope he does have the same feeling and enjoy as i enjoy it...Wish that i have every new year enjoyable like i have during 31/12/2007 till 1/1/2008...Some are just wondering Joey are u too kua cheong leh how wonderful izzit are that is so boring???? Dunnoe y too me is very passion just feel good with it no other reason..Today i dun feel so well with myself..I'm having terrible headache today morning when i wake up...still have to go to class...sometimes just need a rest finding a suitable shoulder for me to lean on..great chest for me to hug on or lie on and sometimes for me to listen to his heart beat..this is gonna be an early dream wahahahahahhaha...when will Joey grow up ar so silly to think of all this stuff now..such a silly girl........