Why??

Why is this happening again...why cant u believe me....am i rubbish to you..the momenent i sit back in front of the computers my eyes get wet again....Did i do anything wrong again why would i get such treatment everytime why why why!!!!!!!!!!! i noe i mean nothing to you...but pls open ur eyes wider and ur ears wide listen to other ppl la....i told myself and i have learn this word we eat the sweet one's the sour one's the spicy one's and also the bitter one's....I just dun understand u didn't want to believe.....Still believe is a name for myself and why because not one person out there is believable and i only believe myself give a chance to myself well virtual world is not part of my life i dun think i will take this for long...Until this extend it is so bad until i dun want to hear anymore not only you but all that involve....I hope it stops here and i dun want to spit out the word from this moment we are not friends anymore....It seems childish talking this but today im really sad,up sad,crying until my tears dry up.....Never for once my tears dry up....Dunnoe whom should i tell i have nobody to listen to me...my trusted friend no more trust me....Well take it as if i never meet him b4...i dont want to explain much not because i did it and i dun dare to say is just i feel that if i din do it why must i explain so much let the regrets stay with u guys forever...to me im still younng i can find my life....I believe so much in you and at last i get this well..i just sallow all the sadness to myself and dun let anyone know it....Because of this problem i nearly went to the heaven cause i nearly meet with an accident if i really die that momment i guess nobody will ask me question any more...regardless of it i should live happier than wat i have now and would not want ppl to question me anymore....Hoping that tomorrow would be a brighter day..