Why??

Why is this happening again...why cant u believe me....am i rubbish to you..the momenent i sit back in front of the computers my eyes get wet again....Did i do anything wrong again why would i get such treatment everytime why why why!!!!!!!!!!! i noe i mean nothing to you...but pls open ur eyes wider and ur ears wide listen to other ppl la....i told myself and i have learn this word we eat the sweet one's the sour one's the spicy one's and also the bitter one's....I just dun understand u didn't want to believe.....Still believe is a name for myself and why because not one person out there is believable and i only believe myself give a chance to myself well virtual world is not part of my life i dun think i will take this for long...Until this extend it is so bad until i dun want to hear anymore not only you but all that involve....I hope it stops here and i dun want to spit out the word from this moment we are not friends anymore....It seems childish talking this but today im really sad,up sad,crying until my tears dry up.....Never for once my tears dry up....Dunnoe whom should i tell i have nobody to listen to me...my trusted friend no more trust me....Well take it as if i never meet him b4...i dont want to explain much not because i did it and i dun dare to say is just i feel that if i din do it why must i explain so much let the regrets stay with u guys forever...to me im still younng i can find my life....I believe so much in you and at last i get this well..i just sallow all the sadness to myself and dun let anyone know it....Because of this problem i nearly went to the heaven cause i nearly meet with an accident if i really die that momment i guess nobody will ask me question any more...regardless of it i should live happier than wat i have now and would not want ppl to question me anymore....Hoping that tomorrow would be a brighter day..

So fast is already thursday now....

Aiya i need to know australia more ppl who leave there and know their country well pls come to me....I need to do some presentation on it..dont noe wat else to write heheh..

Wednesday...

I've started to watch the drama heart of greed although this drama was done one year ago but i only watch it this few day...Am i outdated no actually i've ask him to send me a copy but he denied so i must work on my own hands to get wat ever i want...there are many ups and down...Today i taught of you again....Taught of the happy thing that we have done it together...It have been sometimes that i've not seen you ...Dont worry that i will stick to you..man hates a lady sticking to him i noe...I remember for once i've ask you this question...How long will you keep this special memories with you as an unfrogettable memories and you said it will be there for long and i'll remember it clearly....And from the last talks u told me that u almost forget it already well it is ur choice of it.Might be a good things of forgeting things fast..I admit it myself that is still in my memories some part of it.Anyway we got to continue of different road....Get the rigt path and walk though out our whole life.....Hope to see both of us improve in everything we doing and going to be done....Take care stay healthy and less drinking...

Tuesday......

Today is the 1st day of class. As usuall things are so messy so many things to be done so many things to apply so many forms to fill in haizzzz all that i can say is ho fannnn ar....but the feeling is weird again when im back here i see my old friends old classmate it seem like a little far apart already....No wonder i always listen to ppl saying that long distance relationship is hard to maintain and its real it is reallll....the 1st day of class lecturer already giving out assigments and group work.....Very stress arrrr.....Anybody can helppppp..But.....Hey wat song was that....Anita's and Jacky's song Ai hen nan....Si fau chan dik ya hen nan ma???
loving someone is real hard being love is 100X harder....If everything come just like the water flow to me....Thats too good but i belive in this world nothing is easy and if u get it easy it means that we are not proud of it too....Time really flies and i still did not do much in improving myself and my lifestyle..So sad..

Thinking away.....

Wo bu shi yue liang, ye bu shi xing xing, dan wo ke yi zuo yi dian deng, yong yuan wei ni fa guang!!!I'm not a moon and im not a star too but i can make be a lamp that lights you forever....When i look at this sentence im thinking how many ppl can actually do this for their the other half...if they are willing to do how long are they willing to do....1 year ,2 years,5 years,10 years, 20 years, or forever.....It is definately not and easy thing to be done.To actually that the 1st step pick up the responsible itself is not easy....But if you guys anyone out there who could do this well and forever congratulation....Anyway good luck to all and myself so that i can get someone who lights me forever.....

Saturday morning......

Listening to hokkien music right now.........nice feel to relax my body and my bones it is so tens up this few days.....i've did everything to relax myself.....i need to leave the city for sometimes....I want to go to the heaven of food a place where i can eat eat and eat without considering anything........tomorrow medical report will be out hope that everything is normal....so afraid to go to the hospital already....

Why would you making me sad again........

Enough of you torture la................Wat am i to you....A bag for you to put in all ur blames have u ever think about me am i nothing to you just some dust.......I so fed up wit it why cant u give me a chance to live happily give me a chance to breath laaaaaaa.........Just tell me if you want me to leave............Dont always give me unnessesary stress im not always a tough girl that can accept any kinds of torture.........Pls i beg you if u see this blog.........Leave me.........No matter how i've tell you about it u just dun belive it wat can i do......What you want me to do.......I can just cry out silently........I still have many paths to go........i noe im nothing to you but pls dont hurt me again....i will collaps anytime.....

Failure..............

Today failure is tomorrow sucess.....Yesterday was a history...Tomorrow is a mistery and Today was a gift by god that i can see wats happening around....Too many failure will make someone weak and it forces them to give up....Give up on hope and those serious one's give up on themself and their life's...Do not always look back at the past because that will only be a reminder to us tat we do not repeat those wrong things but sometimes under some condition it will make u guys think about it again but be proud of youself for the history that you have created no matter is good or bad you have done it urself....If u think you Sin's with youself Get some prayers done to wash out the sins and this will make ur live better.....My Job in KUALA LUMPUR AT LAST ENDED LALALALAL......Sick of rushing to work and rushing back home....Now that i can breath hardly and deep get more fresh air.........Tonight going to a place where i've not been there for long just feeling that i want myself to get drunk i want ALCOHOL YES YES !!!!!!!!!!!!!HEHEHE...See if there are any good guys that i can meet tonight.........