It is almost between hell and heaven

13th october 2007 a very good lesson for me little innocent joey.I still aught i'm very smart in choosing ppl as frens.I taught i was really smart to noe who is lying and who is not who is black and who is white but lastly i really noe dat im too innocent to think of it this way.but what really happen on that particular day well im as usual meeting up with online frens that i've never seen b4 nor know them well but dunnoe why so brave i ask for a meet up and i regreted that i meet that fren.His face looks scary as if like those killer outside like wat the papers write i was so worry from the 1st sight i saw him.The 1st feeling i have was can i pretend that i never see him but cant since i've ask him out so i have to continue acting.His attitude was just so annoying i feel so stressful and tired.His features is scary both hands tattoed and just too scary but he doesnt show any intention to do anything but i just dun feel right and now i really exprience 1. I'm really hoping that this doesn't happens. Is just that i've lost confidence in people now especially guys no matter how good you look. The fear and stress was so bad until i've actually cried 15th oct 1 something morning when i talk about it again to another guy fren of mine that i have not meet b4 too but he said something which is very correct he said that if anything happens it is also cause by myself nobody else to blame of. Just feel that myself stupid of trusted a person which i suppose not too but i've learn a lesson without loosing anything with 100% risk.IT was such a relife after thinking back that its over.But believe 1 thing and it is very true if u face any problems pls do not avoid it because the more ur avoiding the more worst it will be and with that guy in genting i've actually tried to leave him out for 5 times but failed and just have to admit the world is too small.at last we still took the same bus down from genting and we dint even speak a word and i dun dare to walk near him even form the start.I wouldn't have reacted like that if he never chats or talk to me b4 because of that i realise he told me lots of lies to make him seems not a very responsible person.I never want to be such a bad person meaning leave someone behind but that day i've make myself just as bad as possible just to get myself out from there and never see him again.But i noe i'm a bad girl cause i'm looking others with a such eyes but i just cant control myself to do that just so scared that he will be following me.until now i still have such feeling very strong 1.Just to tell everyone out there mo matter ur a guy or girl we are not dispose to risk anytime anywhere and anybody.Hoping this will be the last time and history never repeats.Huh? Thanks for those who have get through with me when im in danger the are also net frends that i've meet but not those with intention......