It's 11.56 pm

Going to be another new day after 3 more minute..Thanks for those who still visit my blog once awhile.Thanks for the msg you leave me..Sometime when ppl dun speak out we cant feel it but she they speak out i got hurt no matter where am i on earth it happens.My moods get down nobody to talk to..I'm gonna grad soon im going to step in to the cruel reality world this is too scary but i need to go this is life.More problems is gonna hunt for me.What should i do singing isn't curing me now.I dunnoe wat should i do.Assignment is as high as mountain..If i dun finish it this week im going to die everything have to be done...Give me your support.Let me noe ur supporting me.If you dont tell i really dunnoe gar come to me...SOmetimes i feel like hugging but who should i hug...ok la till here for today.

HAve not been writing for sometimes..

So sorry to all my readers. I have not been writing form sometimes maybe i dun have the mood or feel to write but to day i came and scratch a little.Today i found out that many ppl actually have deleted my msn or blocked me is really serious case in here cause some are my friends that for once we chat to each other almost about everything but if u guys would like to delete or block me b4 that do inform me so that i can do the same. Especially mr SC not sure if this is his name bu if you are reading this and you feel that im no more qualify to be your friend pls do inform me so that i can just totally wipe it all off.SEriously telling you mr sc i really do not have anything that belongs to you with me none...not even a tiny hair...You see god is always fair the more you don like it it will appear infront of you..IF one day who ever i really meet on the road no worries you can just walk away i only respect those who respect me as well as a friend is not there is no more meaning.you dont see doesn't mean you will forget.Happens is already happen it will forever follow you...But im always truth to friends no matter who they are you don appreciate it den is ok my luck to have such friends..ok i've said more than enough today and if you really read this, just thanks for u dropping by to read.

Without him....

without him 21 day Cloudy,Today cant concentrate on singing although i'm singing the song of myself...but when im try to put my feelings in the song and i start to think abou him again although is not a long time that we have known each other but it has been some par of it that we actually walk the path together...I knew it well that i will loose him after the terrible quarell i had with him...but anyway it is over...and today i missed him so much and i went back to see him....but i dont feel good as well when is saw him... i'm glad that he is fine and seems happy well to love someone is to make sure he is happy...i realise that he had been close to this lady lately and i went and confirm it myself and yes my prediction is correct...I couldn't go back and ask him anything more.Wat i could do now is just looking at him from far make sure he is fine....i guess im just over worried about him maybe he just live better now....I'm just so silly...but i've done many silly things..How long will he stay in my heart another 1 day, 2 day or 10 days maybe 1 month i dunnoe i really dont noe...HE treat me as sister all this while and i noe it....and i've lost a brother...and he have found someone he loves....i just feel so so bad when i see them together...tears fall inside my heart again....many things that i have to concentrate for now so many asignments and exxam coming....Forget him la....Put it all in another dairy...i told myself not to step into the same hole again and yet i fell in again....The Dream of looking at sunset together while eating "Ngau Hor" is really a dream that never come true....I have another dream i want to see "LAu Sing Yu" hehe........i guess he must be a very romantic person so that i will have my dreams come true...No more thinking.....Move forwarddddddddd Dun look backkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!! Do the bes for yourself and not for others...

Why??

Why is this happening again...why cant u believe me....am i rubbish to you..the momenent i sit back in front of the computers my eyes get wet again....Did i do anything wrong again why would i get such treatment everytime why why why!!!!!!!!!!! i noe i mean nothing to you...but pls open ur eyes wider and ur ears wide listen to other ppl la....i told myself and i have learn this word we eat the sweet one's the sour one's the spicy one's and also the bitter one's....I just dun understand u didn't want to believe.....Still believe is a name for myself and why because not one person out there is believable and i only believe myself give a chance to myself well virtual world is not part of my life i dun think i will take this for long...Until this extend it is so bad until i dun want to hear anymore not only you but all that involve....I hope it stops here and i dun want to spit out the word from this moment we are not friends anymore....It seems childish talking this but today im really sad,up sad,crying until my tears dry up.....Never for once my tears dry up....Dunnoe whom should i tell i have nobody to listen to me...my trusted friend no more trust me....Well take it as if i never meet him b4...i dont want to explain much not because i did it and i dun dare to say is just i feel that if i din do it why must i explain so much let the regrets stay with u guys forever...to me im still younng i can find my life....I believe so much in you and at last i get this well..i just sallow all the sadness to myself and dun let anyone know it....Because of this problem i nearly went to the heaven cause i nearly meet with an accident if i really die that momment i guess nobody will ask me question any more...regardless of it i should live happier than wat i have now and would not want ppl to question me anymore....Hoping that tomorrow would be a brighter day..

So fast is already thursday now....

Aiya i need to know australia more ppl who leave there and know their country well pls come to me....I need to do some presentation on it..dont noe wat else to write heheh..

Wednesday...

I've started to watch the drama heart of greed although this drama was done one year ago but i only watch it this few day...Am i outdated no actually i've ask him to send me a copy but he denied so i must work on my own hands to get wat ever i want...there are many ups and down...Today i taught of you again....Taught of the happy thing that we have done it together...It have been sometimes that i've not seen you ...Dont worry that i will stick to you..man hates a lady sticking to him i noe...I remember for once i've ask you this question...How long will you keep this special memories with you as an unfrogettable memories and you said it will be there for long and i'll remember it clearly....And from the last talks u told me that u almost forget it already well it is ur choice of it.Might be a good things of forgeting things fast..I admit it myself that is still in my memories some part of it.Anyway we got to continue of different road....Get the rigt path and walk though out our whole life.....Hope to see both of us improve in everything we doing and going to be done....Take care stay healthy and less drinking...

Tuesday......

Today is the 1st day of class. As usuall things are so messy so many things to be done so many things to apply so many forms to fill in haizzzz all that i can say is ho fannnn ar....but the feeling is weird again when im back here i see my old friends old classmate it seem like a little far apart already....No wonder i always listen to ppl saying that long distance relationship is hard to maintain and its real it is reallll....the 1st day of class lecturer already giving out assigments and group work.....Very stress arrrr.....Anybody can helppppp..But.....Hey wat song was that....Anita's and Jacky's song Ai hen nan....Si fau chan dik ya hen nan ma???
loving someone is real hard being love is 100X harder....If everything come just like the water flow to me....Thats too good but i belive in this world nothing is easy and if u get it easy it means that we are not proud of it too....Time really flies and i still did not do much in improving myself and my lifestyle..So sad..