A Day out with a Guy...

I've never went out with a guy 1 to 1 basic... All this while i've been thinking that it might be kinda odd but it is kinda odd... it feel weired to me... Yeah i dun like the weird feeling of this... but nothing much for the day simply boring movie with a boring man and boring hehe....

Trying to change all the hates to love...

Leave it 1by 1... i mean 1 at the time.... Things that we have been used to it everyday its have been at your side for some times its hard to let go.. but once let go no turning back... i truly believe that there is age gap... i truly found out that i act just like others.... myself confidence differ...its getting lesser and lesser... aiyoo so depress i've got to swim until out breath although i cant swim well i want to.... feeling so exhausted... cant breath at this moment...sleep is the best solution...

Good night folks..........

After 2 months.....

Life have turn more interesting ever since i came to my new work place....Its a big corporation whereby many rules to follow and many kind of human to be dealing with...Above me below me beside me and all the customer...Things get annoying when it doesn't come with sense...After all i do learn more when i do it hands on...The earth is changing drastically....without me knowing when is our turn...live life with no regrets....

Dream Dream i love to dream haha...

Today...I have had a dream... I dream of I meeting him back after 6 years.... THere was a guy(AA) whom came up to me to say that his salary given for this month is inappropriate... So i ran after him to get his number so that i could contact him....He didn't gave me the immediately he was arguing with me why should he give me the number....After sometimes of argue he gave me his number but while we are arguing we have disturb some other people in the meeting room... and somehow the people in the meeting room chase us out......So me and AA run and run and we hide in a room.... Finally we got find out by them and they came up to us with very fierce eyes looking at us...and %#*_%@*%_#%*#_ scold us alot ahahaha....this part is funny...after that i realize he gave me a house number instead of his mobile number..... After that we went apart.... In this 6 years we seems to have some feelings for each other...but we are looking at each other from far..... We never speak to each others but in our eyes we do see each other.... Until one day we meet each other in somebody's house... we both brought food.... and there are many people over there.....As usual we still don't talk to each other...So i stood up and going to get something he followed me.... I'm trying to avoid so i walk quickly leaving the house and went to the garden... He followed me from behind...when i was sitting on the bench he grab my hand....and he said please do not avoid the feeling you have for me... You know as well i have feelings for you.... Why would we want to live in this way???? I was so touched and my sister woke me up..... Ish Ish.....

Depress and No Mood.....

What to type over here leh..... i'm so depress everything bad is hitting me...i know i shall stand strong but im really tired... pls hope that this 2010 will end soon...please pray that i'll get a super good job in hand....good boss good pay.... awwww i feel is so hard now...having a good personality is not enough i still need good skills but i have none..... at some point i feel unwanted.... what ever i want nothing is coming to me... and most important MONEY NOT ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!

No more mood to continue writing.

DrEaM...

I have a dream...of you and me...Together we go from Autumn to Summer to Spring to Winter....Very obvious that Malaysia only have 1 season haha... So for me to get 4 season i have to be together either with a gwai lou or with somebody whom stay in the 4 season country.... While i grow older i still have a dream just like when i were young...Dreaming of getting married..having my own family....having cute kids...cooking their meal everyday....clean the house make the house as comfortable as possible.. Keep my husband warm and family feel when he comes home... All this while i'm always thinking what is my ambition no matter how hard i look in the Jobstreets i can't find a job that i feel suitable for me..when ever somebody ask me what is your ambition i said i don't know..... Maybe my ambition is being a 100% housewife... awww that is sweet rite hehe..... So know i must learn to cook to bake to wash.... well i think i know how to wash but baking i still have much to learn.... Being a perfect mom and perfect wife not easy.... there is a Chinese saying says that a women which is 100% is a women that can go in to the kitchen and do well in the living room.... But my friend will be saying hay will that be a little stupid that you have not enjoy much and you get married so early... well i will of course say no... my dream is to build my family.... How soon will my dream come true!!!!

Busy Busy....

Been very busy this month...weekend have no rest too... This is the fasting month for the Muslims therefore it will be a busy month for my family too...My mom making the spring roll skin... You called it Popiah in Malaysia.... The skin isnt easy at all....the technique and the skills not been build up a day or two but...20+ years... If you Guys intrested..come my stall at Taman Selera Petaling Jaya Old town...

Selamat Berpuasa Umat Manusia....