it's Monday again....

Today back to studies...we did some presentation hmmm...today i continue the drama love to cry when i watch those drama...cry when is touching...cant write too much..got friend sad and have problem have to help them haizzzz never ending..

No more diary....

Why why why im so good to people..why wanna be ppls diary for so long....now they come to you when they have problems..i really wan to help but wat can i do wor... you all dun come to me anymore la i really dun wanna be anybody's diary any more..im already so stress but nobody come and comfort me but come and tell me about their problem when they really have problem but they dun come o share happinest wat kind of fren is this.i'm so sorry i really dont noe wat to do..I'm not superwomen nor superman ar....ppl come to me when they have problem but i go to no one when i have problem im just a failureeeeeeeee............haizzzzzzzzzzzzz

lonely night 2.12am

today went out to mid valley with my sisters...Park my car at south court...When i pass by the south court main entrance...i'm stunt i remember he walk in through that place and i first meet him there...whole day thinkin nonsense...i'm now all alone..

Those were the Days...

Joey is getting older day by day...my thinking getting deep and deep far far away until i myself dont understand myself. When i was in high school we just go to school talk and laugh there goes all the time having fun talking nonsense but those were the days...I noe somebody out there care for me..Im glad thank you buddy out there..i might not noe who but i noe there is someone. Im sorry because i feel someone but i dunnoe who i cant see you i can hear you bu feeling...I will get stronger day after day.. I'm finishing this semester soon is gonna be holiday again.. I wonder what history will i create this holiday...I've some sweet one's the last holiday..hehe
This time maybe just working...Nobody inform me that he or she is coming for holidays but if im free i sure be there at least a drink..Le you guys see me from a closer look haha...ok got to continue assignments.

It's 11.56 pm

Going to be another new day after 3 more minute..Thanks for those who still visit my blog once awhile.Thanks for the msg you leave me..Sometime when ppl dun speak out we cant feel it but she they speak out i got hurt no matter where am i on earth it happens.My moods get down nobody to talk to..I'm gonna grad soon im going to step in to the cruel reality world this is too scary but i need to go this is life.More problems is gonna hunt for me.What should i do singing isn't curing me now.I dunnoe wat should i do.Assignment is as high as mountain..If i dun finish it this week im going to die everything have to be done...Give me your support.Let me noe ur supporting me.If you dont tell i really dunnoe gar come to me...SOmetimes i feel like hugging but who should i hug...ok la till here for today.

HAve not been writing for sometimes..

So sorry to all my readers. I have not been writing form sometimes maybe i dun have the mood or feel to write but to day i came and scratch a little.Today i found out that many ppl actually have deleted my msn or blocked me is really serious case in here cause some are my friends that for once we chat to each other almost about everything but if u guys would like to delete or block me b4 that do inform me so that i can do the same. Especially mr SC not sure if this is his name bu if you are reading this and you feel that im no more qualify to be your friend pls do inform me so that i can just totally wipe it all off.SEriously telling you mr sc i really do not have anything that belongs to you with me none...not even a tiny hair...You see god is always fair the more you don like it it will appear infront of you..IF one day who ever i really meet on the road no worries you can just walk away i only respect those who respect me as well as a friend is not there is no more meaning.you dont see doesn't mean you will forget.Happens is already happen it will forever follow you...But im always truth to friends no matter who they are you don appreciate it den is ok my luck to have such friends..ok i've said more than enough today and if you really read this, just thanks for u dropping by to read.

Without him....

without him 21 day Cloudy,Today cant concentrate on singing although i'm singing the song of myself...but when im try to put my feelings in the song and i start to think abou him again although is not a long time that we have known each other but it has been some par of it that we actually walk the path together...I knew it well that i will loose him after the terrible quarell i had with him...but anyway it is over...and today i missed him so much and i went back to see him....but i dont feel good as well when is saw him... i'm glad that he is fine and seems happy well to love someone is to make sure he is happy...i realise that he had been close to this lady lately and i went and confirm it myself and yes my prediction is correct...I couldn't go back and ask him anything more.Wat i could do now is just looking at him from far make sure he is fine....i guess im just over worried about him maybe he just live better now....I'm just so silly...but i've done many silly things..How long will he stay in my heart another 1 day, 2 day or 10 days maybe 1 month i dunnoe i really dont noe...HE treat me as sister all this while and i noe it....and i've lost a brother...and he have found someone he loves....i just feel so so bad when i see them together...tears fall inside my heart again....many things that i have to concentrate for now so many asignments and exxam coming....Forget him la....Put it all in another dairy...i told myself not to step into the same hole again and yet i fell in again....The Dream of looking at sunset together while eating "Ngau Hor" is really a dream that never come true....I have another dream i want to see "LAu Sing Yu" hehe........i guess he must be a very romantic person so that i will have my dreams come true...No more thinking.....Move forwarddddddddd Dun look backkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!! Do the bes for yourself and not for others...