Dream Dream i love to dream haha...

Today...I have had a dream... I dream of I meeting him back after 6 years.... THere was a guy(AA) whom came up to me to say that his salary given for this month is inappropriate... So i ran after him to get his number so that i could contact him....He didn't gave me the immediately he was arguing with me why should he give me the number....After sometimes of argue he gave me his number but while we are arguing we have disturb some other people in the meeting room... and somehow the people in the meeting room chase us out......So me and AA run and run and we hide in a room.... Finally we got find out by them and they came up to us with very fierce eyes looking at us...and %#*_%@*%_#%*#_ scold us alot ahahaha....this part is funny...after that i realize he gave me a house number instead of his mobile number..... After that we went apart.... In this 6 years we seems to have some feelings for each other...but we are looking at each other from far..... We never speak to each others but in our eyes we do see each other.... Until one day we meet each other in somebody's house... we both brought food.... and there are many people over there.....As usual we still don't talk to each other...So i stood up and going to get something he followed me.... I'm trying to avoid so i walk quickly leaving the house and went to the garden... He followed me from behind...when i was sitting on the bench he grab my hand....and he said please do not avoid the feeling you have for me... You know as well i have feelings for you.... Why would we want to live in this way???? I was so touched and my sister woke me up..... Ish Ish.....

Depress and No Mood.....

What to type over here leh..... i'm so depress everything bad is hitting me...i know i shall stand strong but im really tired... pls hope that this 2010 will end soon...please pray that i'll get a super good job in hand....good boss good pay.... awwww i feel is so hard now...having a good personality is not enough i still need good skills but i have none..... at some point i feel unwanted.... what ever i want nothing is coming to me... and most important MONEY NOT ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!

No more mood to continue writing.

DrEaM...

I have a dream...of you and me...Together we go from Autumn to Summer to Spring to Winter....Very obvious that Malaysia only have 1 season haha... So for me to get 4 season i have to be together either with a gwai lou or with somebody whom stay in the 4 season country.... While i grow older i still have a dream just like when i were young...Dreaming of getting married..having my own family....having cute kids...cooking their meal everyday....clean the house make the house as comfortable as possible.. Keep my husband warm and family feel when he comes home... All this while i'm always thinking what is my ambition no matter how hard i look in the Jobstreets i can't find a job that i feel suitable for me..when ever somebody ask me what is your ambition i said i don't know..... Maybe my ambition is being a 100% housewife... awww that is sweet rite hehe..... So know i must learn to cook to bake to wash.... well i think i know how to wash but baking i still have much to learn.... Being a perfect mom and perfect wife not easy.... there is a Chinese saying says that a women which is 100% is a women that can go in to the kitchen and do well in the living room.... But my friend will be saying hay will that be a little stupid that you have not enjoy much and you get married so early... well i will of course say no... my dream is to build my family.... How soon will my dream come true!!!!

Busy Busy....

Been very busy this month...weekend have no rest too... This is the fasting month for the Muslims therefore it will be a busy month for my family too...My mom making the spring roll skin... You called it Popiah in Malaysia.... The skin isnt easy at all....the technique and the skills not been build up a day or two but...20+ years... If you Guys intrested..come my stall at Taman Selera Petaling Jaya Old town...

Selamat Berpuasa Umat Manusia....

Sleepy Sleepy....

I am so sleepy ar.....watery eyes.... how good if i have a bed next to me now.. And the air conditioner is just the right temperature... so nice to sleep...so tired... wow how wonderful is if i have a man with 6 pack for me here to lean on ouch...
Dream Dream.... Sweet Dream....

Arghhhhh office is so boring.....i need power nap..

七月初七。。情人节。。。

今天是我么华人的情人节。。 在外面有很都男男女女。。。还没有另一半。。祝大家有情人终成眷属。
To those whom can read Chinese is Valentines day....7th day of the 7th month....Wishing everybody out there will get their partners soon and for those whom already have their partners... Appreciate them everyday... as though everyday is Valentines day.....AS we know that every human in the world is not born with perfectness....Therefore our partner is the one whom made us perfect..just like the yin yang symbol...till now...kamsahaminda..

Enjoy....

I Dream the Dream.....

As always the dream that we dream does represent something....Did i watched too much movies that make me feel or react just like those main characters....In the dream i wanted to be with somebody but when that somebody appear i tend to hide myself so that he cant find me....what does this dream means...if there are any dream reader out there please let me know what is the meaning of this dream...there are some dream which is so beautiful...i don't want myself to wake up because i know once i wake up i will never dream again the dream.. at times i even try to sleep and hope to continue the journey of the dream... am i innocent girl.... I am very clear to myself that it is a dream that will never turn and become real in life...but at least we human are gift with the dreams...with dreams we have hope........

Human Faces......

No matter how busy are you.... You cannot simply scold people for nothing saying that you are not doing your own work... don't keep peeping on me.... haha... Don't make me mad lor....IF not because of you...im no more in this company la...no matter how....i will stay until the end of 2010....no matter how hard....Actually nothing is hard in the world just that...we must take in considerate others ppl feeling....Every human just care for themselves....but in their eyes others don't work as hardworking as they are..... To me im just learning more human behavior in this %&)%&!)#%%&)*%@!&%*!#% Company..... Kik Sei Yan................................................................

Why would i want to stay here...... why am i so stupid......................
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One moment please....

When something comes easily it seems to go away easily too..Why life has to be so miserable indeed... When you have something too much you will fell that is so nothing special at all. IF the thing you want you never get you crave for it so much.... Will i be the victim one day that being cheated feelings.... Yesterday i had a talk with 2 of my good friend analyzing some special relationship that i have had not long ago.... Why that i would have a very confident feeling that this is real.. In some case nothing have happen till now... Well is a very painful situation when you cannot do anything for him... But i still trust.. Am i blind already... No i dont think im blind... But is there really such things call Fate and Time.... Does your fate and time come on the same spot.. I really have no idea until i met him... He gave me the comfort feeling and made me feel that he is the one.... Again why !!!! I dunnoe why because LOVE has no asnwer for it... Time will show and determine what will really happen... Time will show that this is gonna be something wonderful just like those fairy tale story... " Tong Hua Gu shi" haha... I want him to hold my hands tight... for the rest of my life.. never let go or try to let go... because i believe that your meant to be mine...

Fat Mou blog...

Kakaka....it has been long again have not updated my blog ever since...where have you guys been...for the past 1 month....work work work or study study study or play play play neh... me for the past 1 month im really working real hard to absorb everthing as fast and as quick as i can..time really fly 1 month pass for the year of 2010..close your eyes guys and is another 1 year pass really soon which would be the cow year la...hahha ending soon...Coming will be the TIGER year which will be my year lo.. Again older another year...everyday looking into the mirror and nothing have change besides getting older and Prettier lol hahaha....i wonder who will reading my blog...hmmmm Blog ar Blog please tell me who is reading my blog la ok...hehe

.......to be continue