Without him....

without him 21 day Cloudy,Today cant concentrate on singing although i'm singing the song of myself...but when im try to put my feelings in the song and i start to think abou him again although is not a long time that we have known each other but it has been some par of it that we actually walk the path together...I knew it well that i will loose him after the terrible quarell i had with him...but anyway it is over...and today i missed him so much and i went back to see him....but i dont feel good as well when is saw him... i'm glad that he is fine and seems happy well to love someone is to make sure he is happy...i realise that he had been close to this lady lately and i went and confirm it myself and yes my prediction is correct...I couldn't go back and ask him anything more.Wat i could do now is just looking at him from far make sure he is fine....i guess im just over worried about him maybe he just live better now....I'm just so silly...but i've done many silly things..How long will he stay in my heart another 1 day, 2 day or 10 days maybe 1 month i dunnoe i really dont noe...HE treat me as sister all this while and i noe it....and i've lost a brother...and he have found someone he loves....i just feel so so bad when i see them together...tears fall inside my heart again....many things that i have to concentrate for now so many asignments and exxam coming....Forget him la....Put it all in another dairy...i told myself not to step into the same hole again and yet i fell in again....The Dream of looking at sunset together while eating "Ngau Hor" is really a dream that never come true....I have another dream i want to see "LAu Sing Yu" hehe........i guess he must be a very romantic person so that i will have my dreams come true...No more thinking.....Move forwarddddddddd Dun look backkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!! Do the bes for yourself and not for others...